no holiness for this day

I woke up this morning quite good slash not. Run my daily routines smoothly. I went to hear mass at seven. I can't believe that some place had priest shortage so the minister will be filling in. When priests are missing, ministers and seminarians would preach about the day's Gospel. But this time, it wasn't about it. I really don't know what he ate this day that instead of preaching what's inside the Gospel, he preached his life. I'm quite surprised that he really didn't get my attention. Normally, when people talk about their lives, I would be curious and drop anything just to listen. He talked about his life in politics, him being a sinner, etc. etc. I never disagreed on anything he said on his way of living. But if I would tell you I liked it I would be sarcastic. The two things I don't agree the most is first, when he sang a really really lonely song. Aren't we supposed to be happy because we are preparing for Jesus' birthday? Our saviour is coming, do we really have to do things that would make us sad? From the last five masses I heard, they keep on telling us to be happy even though we have way so many unconventional twists in life. Be happy because God's most gracious gift will soon be arriving in four days. We should be jolly and feel the real spirit despite of the spins in our lives. Second, he told us something that God would never ever forgive. That hit me. Ever since when I was young, my family taught me to ask for forgiveness in all the things I do wrong. I believe that all sins can be forgiven, it only differs on the type of fate that would come for you to pay for your sins. I am not questioning his faith in the Lord. I never judged on anybody specially when it comes to the almighty. I just don't agree with his preachings today. Tomorrow, would be another day, another mass, I hope it would be normal.

I dreamed of three things last night, that's why I'm thinking maybe it's one of the causes of me being unstable this day.

One, I was having sex with one of my good friends which is not to be named.

Two, Vic Sotto was having a full body scrub treatment with Oatmeal flakes and cheese standing by himself in front of a huge mass of people including me, and it seems like I enjoy watching him scrubbing all parts of his body.

Three, My bestfriend and I joined on a cycling marathon naked. Eventually, I didn't know if we won the race. That's the part when I woke up.

Maybe I shouldn't stay up later than three in the morning. I really don't know what is happening to my dream lair nowadays.