Count your blessings

This time I am serious. Everytime I plan to blog some things I haven't shared, experienced and missed, my mind completely turns empty. It's like when I am inside the bus, train, or whatever I do, there's this random moment that I suddenly wanted to write but when my hand touches my computer, it all fades away. Is there difference between live-blogging and after-blogging? Hmmm...I can't figure it out. Like at this moment, before I started this post, I visited a couple of blogs which I read regularly when I need inspiration and when I am fully inspired to write something, I try to write again and everything disappears. Enough of this shit. I just have to let out of these things running into my mind for now.

How many times have you counted you blessings? Me, endless I guess. I remember last January when I celebrated my New Year away from home, they say whatever you do on New Year's eve until the day, would be your activities for the entire year. Well, I guess at that point, it's kind of true.

it's up to you how to interpret it.

What is life??

Is it as bright as these lights?


Tell me. I wanna know your definition.

Click and Drag the Girl through the Bubbles


This is irritating. I don't know why.

Wednesday

It's two fucking thirty in the morning and I am still here in the office. Nothing much had happened to me in these past few months just a full go-walk-move here there and there. I have a lot of things running into my mind and I can't seem to find a way to organize it unlike before.

can you help me? i'm cracking.

Friday

I've put this post on hold and I don't know why I did it when there are so many stories to tell and share.

Happy and I decided to go to his hometown to celebrate fiesta, to meet his other relatives and family members and to celebrate our two hundred and seventy fourth day of being together. I was hesitant to go at first because I am worried that his relatives and his other family members might not like me. Almost everybody knows that I've been invincible but it was cool. The only uncool thing was our travel time. It took us six hours to travel going to the place instead of three, and seven hours going back to my mother's. Fuck fuck fuck the traffic.

Here are some pictures of his cousins, and the church. The super long isle slash key shaped church.










That's only one fourth of his family and they rock. How much more rocking if they are complete. :]

Here comes the church.

Ten Commandments - Filipino Version.

The church is super big. It has this super awesome ceilings and staircase, old fashioned and it has three tunnels connecting to the main Casa de Tayabas Hall down the market place where some people hid themselves during the Japanese and Spanish regime. Rest of the pics are here. Meeting his family and exploring a little bit of his hometown made me realize more that it is important to have a good family building. I am a seed of a broken family. I never had my parents join together or eat in one roof. I am only close to a few cousins, that's why I envy my man, really do for having a wonderful and great family that has nothing to be proud not of money nor fame but of love and a super duper strong family bond.

Oh and after his hometown, we went straight to my mother's place in Rizal. And it went much better. :]

-39TH NATIONAL FOUNDING ANNIVERSARY-

WE ARE THE DYNASTY.

OUR BLOOD AND LEGACY WILL NOT DIE, IT WILL CONTINUE TO LIVE FOREVER.

HAPPY ANNIV!!! INUMAN NAH!!!!

ach's influence. you should try it too! its kinda cute.

I confess...

I've been a dead blogger since when? Try to look at my archives and you'll see. I think I just have 2 posts for this month or less. Most of my time nowadays are tied up with work. Work work work. Never ending work. My nightlife left me when I decided to devote and focus all of my time in working. I said before "at least it's only for the meantime. Working 24/7 won't hurt that much. I just want to save a little." But I was wrong. Little by little as time passes, it is slowly eating my schedule and all I know is I am already tied with it. Before I can still manage to go out to meet some friends after work, or grab something to eat or drink. Now, I only have time for myself to sleep to gain strength. Even weekends. And I wouldn't realize it until I know I've been missin a whole lot of things that I shouldn't be missing. Anyway, I have been endlessly saying that I've been a dead blogger for how many time? two? three? I remember I said it here, here, and here. See? So I should stop saying that I've been missing blogging big time. As what as this great blogger said, "We were just actually living our life." Despite of my work, my depressions, my insanity, OH I love my dearie life. :]

So maybe, just maybe I shouldn't start on making confessions of how I miss blogging. Because I m actually missing it. Not by purpose but by chance. So here am I sitting in my bed, ignoring the heat being inflicted at my thighs coming from my laptop saying I would miss blogging a lot of times, but I will never fade into the world and my passion will never die.

Shet ang lalim non. :]

taken from ice. written by bob.

1. "Lahat naman ng tao sumeseryoso pagtinamaan ng pagmamahal. Yun nga lang, hindi lahat matibay para sa temptasyon."

2. "Gamitin ang puso para alagaan ang taong malapit sayo. Gamitin ang utak
para alagaan ang sarili mo."

3. "Huwag mong bitawan ang bagay na hindi mo kayang makitang hawakan ng iba."

4. "Huwag mong hawakan kung alam mong bibitawan mo lang."

5. "Huwag na huwag ka hahawak kapag alam mong may hawak ka na."

6. "Parang elevator lang yan eh, bakit mo pagsisiksikan ung sarili mo kung
walang pwesto para sayo. Eh meron naman hagdan, ayaw mo lang pansinin."

7. "Kung maghihintay ka nang ng lalandi sayo, walang mangyayari sa buhay mo.. Dapat lumandi ka din."

8. "Pag may mahal ka at ayaw sayo, hayaan mo. Malay mo sa mga susunod na
araw ayaw mo na din sa kanya, naunahan ka lang."

9. "Hiwalayan na kung di ka na masaya. Walang gamot sa tanga kundi pagkukusa."

10. "Pag hindi ka mahal ng mahal mo wag ka magreklamo. Kasi may mga tao rin
na di mo mahal pero mahal ka. Kaya quits lang."

11. "Bakit ba ayaw matulog ng mga bata sa tanghali? Alam ba nilang pag
natuto silang umibig e hindi na sila makakatulog kahit gusto nila?"

12. "Hindi lungkot o takot ang mahirap sa pag-iisa kundi ang pagtanggap na
sa bilyon-bilyong tao sa mundo, wala man lang nakipaglaban upang makasama
ka."

13. "Kung nagmahal ka ng taong di dapat at nasaktan ka, wag mong sisihin ang puso mo. Tumitibok lng yan para mag-supply ng dugo sa katawan mo. Ngayon, kung magaling ka sa anatomy at ang sisisihin mo naman ay ang hypothalamus mo na kumokontrol ng emotions mo, mali ka pa rin! Bakit? Utang na loob! Wag mong isisi sa body organs mo ang mga sama ng loob mo sa buhay! Tandaan mo: magiging masaya ka lang kung matututo kang tanggapin na hindi ang puso, utak, atay o bituka mo ang may kasalanan sa lahat ng nangyari sayo, kundi IKAW mismo!"

14. "Nalaman kong hindi final exam ang passing rate ng buhay. hindi ito
multiple choice, identification, true or false, enumeration or fill-in-the-
blanks na sinasagutan kundi essay na isinusulat araw-araw. Huhusgahan ito
hindi base sa kung tama o mali ang sagot, kundi base sa kung may kabuluhan
ang mga isinulat o wala. Allowed ang erasures."

15. "Wag magmadali sa pag-aasawa. Tatlo, lima , sampung taon sa hinaharap, mag-iiba pa ang pamantayan mo at maiisip mong di pala tamang pumili ng kapareha dahil lang sa kaboses niya si Debbie Gibson o magaling mag-breakdance. Totoong mas importante ang kalooban ng tao higit anuman. Sa paglipas ng panahon, maging ang mga crush ng bayan sa eskwelahan e
nagmumukha ring pandesal. Maniwala ka."

16. "Ayokong nasasanay sa mga bagay na pwede namang wala sa buhay ko "

17. "Hinahanap mo nga ba ako o ang kawalan ko?"

18. "Hindi dahil sa hindi mo naiintindihan ang isang bagay ay
kasinungalingan na ito. At hindi lahat ng kaya mong intindihin ay katotohanan. "

19. "Kumain ka na ng siopao na may palamang pusa o maglakad sa bubog nang
nakayapak, pero wag na wag kang susubok mag-drugs. Kung hindi mo kayang
umiwas, humingi ka ng tulong sa mga magulang mo dahil alam nila kung saan
ang mga murang supplier at hindi ka nila iisahan."

20. "Mag-aral maigi. Kung titigil ka sa pag-aaral, manghihinayang ka
pagtanda mo dahil hindi mo naranasan ang kakaibang ligayang dulot ng mga
araw na walang pasok o suspendido ang klase o absent ang teacher. (Haaay,
sarap!)."

21. "Mangarap ka at abutin mo. Wag mong sisihin ang sira mong pamilya,
palpak mong syota, pilay mong tuta, o mga lumilipad na ipis. Kung may
pagkukulang sa'yo mga magulang mo, pwde kang manisi at maging rebelde.
Tumigil ka sa pag-aaral, mag-asawa ka, mag-drugs ka, magpakulay ka ng buhok
sa kili-kili. Sa bandang huli, ikaw din ang biktima. Rebeldeng walang
napatunayan at bait sa sarili."

22. "Kung hindi mo mahal ang isang tao, wag ka nang magpakita ng motibo para mahalin ka nya.."

23. "KKung dalawa ang mahal mo, piliin mo yung pangalawa. Kasi hindi ka naman magmamahal ng iba kung mahal mo talaga yung una."

24. "Hindi porke't madalas mong ka-chat, kausap sa telepono, kasama sa mga lakad o ka-text ng wantusawa eh may gusto sayo at magkakatuluyan kayo. Meron lang talagang mga taong sadyang friendly, sweet, flirt, malandi, pa-fall o paasa."

25. "Minsan kahit ikaw ang nakaschedule, kailangan mo pa rin maghintay, kasi hindi ikaw ang priority."

26 "Mahirap pumapel sa buhay ng tao. Lalo na kung hindi ikaw yung bida sa script na pinili nya."

27. "Alam mo ba kung gaano kalayo ang pagitan ng dalawang tao pag nagtalikuran na sila? Kailangan mong libutin ang buong mundo para lang makaharap ulit ang taong tinalikuran mo."

28. “Mas mabuting mabigo sa paggawa ng isang bagay kesa magtagumpay sa paggawa ng wala”

29. "Pakawalan mo yung mga bagay na nakakasakit sa iyo kahit na pinasasaya ka nito. Wag mong hintayin ang araw na sakit na lang ang nararamdaman mo at iniwan ka na ng kasiyahan mo."

30. "Ang pag-ibig parang imburnal...nakakatakot mahulog...at kapag nahulog ka, it's either by accident or talagang tanga ka.."

Thursday

I was late. Fucking late at work. I went home yesterday around three in the morning all wet. Super soaked wet. When I went outside the office it wasn't raining hard so I thought I would grab it and walk fast so I could reach the bus stop. Jacq and I were in the middle of ur cheesmax when this fucking storm poured hard at us. Even if we both have umbrellas to cover us up, we lost the battle. We got wet - no, not just wet but super all out wet wet. Para kaming mga kuting na iniwan ng magulang sa lansangan. Yeah the only thing that is not the same is that cats can run fast and hide someplace accessible-us, we have to enjoy the storm. Hahaha

Bitin?

Tuesday

I had a nice starting week. Yesterday was manic but it was handled. I had a meeting with my two bosses last night at Shang. Blah blah blah here, blah blah blah there in short I went to a meeting just to hear bajillion of blah blahs that was just useless and irritating to my ears. The only line that caught my attention was "You want to change your schedule? Or you want any thing?" Wow. I knew it would be different. Of course it's about time that I am the one who will be saying bajillion blah blah blahs. And this time I would be clear as I say to them that I want them to listen to me carefully.

I started to explain the past things that I, myself got involved into. I told them that abusive is not the right term when you actually had conversations with your boss telling that you will be the one responsible for all the bills that you will be consuming in one month. I even told them that it wasn't that complicated until his fat ass slash pet slash so called secretary butt in the situation where she was not supposed to. Fucker. Pasalamat sha I have long patience. As if I'm a short tempered person and will kill out everyone who eventually gets in my way. Haha. I would never do that. I can't even get mad to a person that long. But I guess, it's part of working. You wouldn't be successful unless no one would try to pull you down.

I guess I was just being me. Myself. I know that's the best part of it.

...

This fucking rain is killing me. It wet my shoes, my socks, my pants and my things. Last time I asked for rain was super duper mainit. It was granted. The only thing is, it gave me storm. I guess god loves us so much. So much that he gives more than what we ask for. :]

What Should You Have Done After High School?

You should have gone to a state school. You're a realist. You're not expecting a lifetime in academia, you just want to compete for a decent job and your piece of the pie. Besides, you know that a state school will prepare you to survive in the real world. When you graduate, you won't need someone holding your hand as you cross the street into the working world.

We're down to eight.

But I think I was the only person who is celebrating this said event. We haven't had any conversations since he left for his job training. I still love him though. :]

These are the pictures of our early celebration ended at some chinese resto down south.








The rest of the pics are posted here.

How would I respond?

Somebody left me a message telling that my blog is super duper useless and pathetic. Rock on bitches I do not think about what you say nor what you think. As long as I am not stepping on anyone's feet, I live my life. This is me. Whether you like it or not, this is me.

...

Martin and my bestfriend celebrated their birthday yesterday. Lots of people cam to drink, to eat, to flirt and to whatever things they wanted to do. I had a nice time though.
p***ngina i'm gaining weight. hahahahahaha.






The rest of the pictures are here.
Happy Birthday guys. try to grow up a little. :]

OK.ok. I was browsing some pages online and I came across these funny quiz site. I was just curious so I tried to find out what would be my results. I had a few tests, some are true and some are just as hilarious as my best friend. Hehehe... Looking at my result makes me wonder is there really something wrong with me? Is it because my hair is the same color with my braces? Is it because I am lazy when it comes to combing my hair? Is it because I do not reach my hand for paying passengers? Is it because I can sleep standing and sitting? Is it because I have a quart of Chinese blood running in my veins?? Is it because I am more closer to my boy and gay friends? Is it because I am silent? Is it because I’m like these and I’m like that?

There are lots of things that I do that makes me weird and different. But would you rather do what other people do? Would you choose to be the same as others? Would you like to see the way how they do the things that you do? I think that would be boring. I think that would make you numb. God made us different to let others see that we are indeed different. Me? I would rather stay as weird as I am and do things not according to other people but in my own way. My own terms. This is me. I am different. I am unique. I am not like you. If the day comes that I would be wishing I was the same as other humans, hmmm..I think that would be the “something wrong” part in me.

In Loving memory of lolo..

The page D

Five hours. Five hours of simply staring my numb fingers on the keyboard. Five hours of staring in blank spaces. Five hours of of completely feeling air inside my head. Five hours.

I've put off blogging about this for too long now.

I said I'd finish my releases and then I'd write about it.

I tried in the office, but I couldn't.

I tried at the internet cafe, and the attempt failed.

So I said I'd blog it after Sunday.

But something is telling me that I have to do this today. It's now or never.

The real thing is, despite my new job, different people I met, and the quests of my life for everyday survival, this is the time I felt like I won't be able to stand myself up.

This time, one page of my life was torn and I know it will never ever be brought back. Nor replaced.

I just lost someone special and so close to my heart.

My dad.

I was so good at pretending bad things never existed but that's one thing I can't do now.

I miss him. So much.

I'm alive!! :]

I can hear the Hallelujah Chords singing around my ears. It's like the evolution of my new era. Haha..

As if I am an angel. PLease. For cryin out loud.

I'm just glad I'm OK now. My chest pains are finally gone. I give thanks to my strong and mighty pain killers that they let me sleep for over eight hours in for the first time again in 3 months.

And for the people who showed great concern and affection, Thank you so much. :]

How would I start this blog?

I've been missing blogging for these past few days..I guess I was busy running around things to take care of which I REGULARLY do.

This will be my first entry for this month. I missed blogging about my mother's birthday, The moment I had the chance to visit her in her house, Happy and I's weekend celebrations, Phase III happenings, blah blah blah, etc. etc.

I was deadly sick yesterday. First day of the working week. I never expected my former friend "asthma" would visit and stay with me since yesterday. It wasn't a nice hello at first. It was deadly slash hell slash hurting moment. When I was in high school, I know asthma will visit me when I start to have mucus and coughing out my lungs at the same time but now it's different. I woke up yesterday and made a deadly stretch out of my body muscles. It was hella good. I felt that I'm ready for the entire day. But I wasn't wrong. During lunch, I started to feel that my left back is aching. I ignored it and went back to my eating moment. And then I started to feel that my chest hurts every time I breathe. i really ignored all of the hurts that I felt because I thought it would be short and would just pass away. Damn but I'm wrong. Hundred percent wrong. The fucking back-chest-abdo-heart ache never went out. It stayed with me in the office, in the bathroom, everywhere I go, and when I breathe, the hurt grows bigger. When you think of it literally you'll just think of that I had a heartbreaking relationship or something hurt me emotionally. This time it's not like that. Every time I take oxygen in, My veins are crouching and won't let air pass through me. I can't cough cause my diaphragm's hurting too. My head is also drop dead aching. I started doing initiative and watch Chronicles of Narnia in my DVD. But the aching won't stop, and it started to give me the feeling that within any second my heart would stop beating. I decided to [escape from seeing my boss] go home and take whatever remedy is available. I had my trusty nebulizer inhaling a dose of Meptin. I never thought I was having asthma but I am. And it gave me a hard time shooing it away. He just gave me seventeen hours continuous of of pain and company. Please pray for me. I am not feeling well but I am in the office right now. And I want to go home, but I couldn't.

And I am starting to [heart] hate my boss' assistant.

...

Mark


is not the typical "boy next door" kind of guy but he knows how to make "pacute". For me, he's a mixture of everything: a complete balance of good and bad, love and hatred. He can be funny sometimes, doing unbelievable things that you can't even imagine, and making decisions that leads to failure. He can be sweet, so sweet that you just wanna melt away. He can be hard-headed trying to be the toughest in terms of everything but he remains humble despite his high profile. He's very unpredictable that sometimes I don't know exactly what he is up to...

Every moment with him is priceless
because I never got tired of seeing him beside me...

He is a simple guy, you can catch him at home playing with his phone or watching TV. Many people might have a good impression on him, the same is true in my case that he proved me correct...Somehow I was able to realize that behind those bossy effect and being hard-headed this guy has his marshmallow side...

Fellas...meet MARK, the love of my life.

THIS BAND IS GREAT.



I never saw them play live because of my fucking schedule at work. But somehow in the near future, I can really watch them in person and shout my throat out of cheer. Never got tired of listening to their music. MOZZIE rocks.

What's wrong with me?

Tomorrow's payday, and seems everyone in the office is exited except me.

I miss my mother but I can't find time to visit her in her house.

I have a reasonable compensation but I can't save money for these past few months.

I do the right things and decisions but sometimes I feel guilty about it.

I do not agree with some rules running around me but I can't say no.

I have enough four hours sleep but I am always sleeping when I go to work.

I am a hard drinker but nowadays I seem to get drunk easily.

My system is on error.

What's wrong with me?

HE STILL LOVES ME

Took me a while but I'm finally here. So I just wanna testify make it crystal clear. See I've been picked out, to be picked on, talked bout out my friends mouth, I've been beat down till he turned my life around.

Seems like I always fall short of being worthy cuz I ain't good enough but he still loves me. I ain't no superstar the spotlight ain't shining on me cuz I ain't good enough but he still loves me.

I used to wake up somedays, and wish I'd stayed asleep. Cuz I went to bed on top of the world today the worlds on top of me. Everybody's got opinions they share they ain't been in my position they don't care. That it breaks my heart when I hear what they have to say about me yeah.

I'm not perfect, yes I do wrong. I'm trying my best but it ain't good enough. Shunned by the world, if I don't succeed. Cuz I ain't good enough but he still loves me.

If you ain't worthy just raise your hands and let me know that you understand that we are all so blessed to be loved, loved. Stand for him or fall for anything cuz through his eyes we all look the same, what will we do without out pain.

I'm not perfect, yes I do wrong. I'm trying my best but it ain't good enough. Shunned be the world, If I don't succeed. Cuz I ain't good enough but he still loves me. But the Lord still loves me.

Surfing the net once in a while is not too bad. I found this amazing site you should visit and try. That's where my picture originated.

This, this and this are some pictures that I liked so much.

Purong Tagalog

Napaka malas ng biyernes sa buhay ko. Hindi ko alam kung bakit sa dinami dami ng araw tuwing biyernes lagi itinatapat na sirain ang araw ko. Pwede namang lunes, o kaya martes o kaya kahit anong araw bakit pa biyernes.

Katulad nito:

Tuwing biyernes kadalasang nagpupunta ang walang kasing ganid na taong nakilala ko noong lumipas na dalawang buwan. Siyempre kapwa Pilipino kaya hindi mo pang hihinalaan ng kahit anong ugaling ikasusumpa mo. Kaso, wala pa din pala kahit sabihing "executive" ka pa ng isa sa mga pinaka malaking kumpanya dito sa Pilipinas, kung hayop ka, hayop ka talaga, wala kang magagawa kahit anong linis at tuwid ng suot mo, kahit anong gawin mong suklay sa buhok mo, kahit ilang beses ka pang maligo sa isang araw, kahit gano kadaming pabango ang ibabad mo sa katawan mo, kung hayop ka, hayop ka talaga.

Wala kang kasing sama. Grabe. Pag nakaharap ka sa mga taong pakiramdam mo na ka lebel mo, halos ipagmalaki mong isa kang propesyonal at sibil kang makipagusap at marunong kang makibagay sa lahat ng uri ng tao, pero pag talikod aba mas masahol ka pa sa kung sinong akala mong aso ang kinakausap mo. Kinunan mo pa siya ng litrato para lang ipang kolateral sa hinahabol mong pera. Pinagmuka mo siyang kriminal hinatulan mo na agad wala ka pa namang napapatunayan. At hindi ka pa nakuntento pati cellphone nya kinuha mo. Kala ko ba executive ka? kala ko ba professional ka? Kala ko ba binabayaran ka ng limang libo kada oras sa trabaho mo? Eh bakit wala ka manlang maipalit sa 3210 mong cellphone na pati battery sira pa? Pati casing manlang sana naisip mong palitan kahit yung tig bebente lang diba. Para ano pang sabihin mong may puso ka at lahat ng bagay ay mabibigyan mo ng pagkakataon.

Wala nakong masabi kasi nasayo na lahat eh. Tutal babalik naman sayo lahat ng ginagawa mo. Pati ako, pati ibang tao diba. Umiikot naman ang mundo.

Masama talaga pag madaming pera. Tsk. Tsk.

I have to live a simple life.

Please teach me how.

I'm beginning to get fucked up again. Damn.

Irregularity

I am weird. And I don't know why. Can you?

Can you take me higher?

Random Wednesday

You know you are a free girl when you have:

. the guts to spend your time with your man even weekdays, to tell that you have two jobs.

. spent two hours sitting on the bench of western union without being pissed. [this is new for me]

.walking through the streets of edsa even though you haven't slept.

.been very energetic.

...

Random Pics from my birthday.

Down at five.

Thanks for having the longest patience with regards to my immaturity.

Thanks for throwing tantrums when I'm irritated.

Thanks for making me smile when I snare at everybody.

Thanks for being my lover and being my friend.

Thanks for leaving me when I needed you most

Thanks for making me wait for hours. [you are the only person who did that]

Thanks for being loyal.

Thanks for understanding my crazy ass mood swings.

Thanks for everything.

I LOVE YOU HAPPY. Looking forward for more moments to share with you.

The hard lessons on LOVE and MEN

1. A man won’t let go if he really loves you.

Do not hold on to someone who has let go of you. He does not love you and does not value having you. Believe me, he will not let go if he really loves you. There is another reason he is not willing to tell.

2. Do not look for reasons why he ended the relationship.

There is only one reason why he ended your relationship. He just does not love you. Do not waste your time thinking of reasons or what you should have done. Move on and be open to a man who will truly love you.

3. Do not get hang up on your past.
Do not nag or distrust your current boyfriend just because your ex hurt you. Do not treat him or the relationship the same way. Do not compare. He will not react the same way as your ex. Do not be worried that your simple mistakes will cause him to look for another girl. What happened with your ex was not your fault. It was not because you didn’t guard him enough or you didn’t make him happy enough.
4. Do not look into images.

How many times have you met a girl who didn’t have the best image in school or at the office, but you get to know the girl and found out she was actually extremely nice? Do not rely on images. Oftentimes, it is far from reality. Do not fear men just because your “supposedly” perfect ex-boyfriend mistreated you.

5. Always have your own set of rules.

Set your limits on how far you’d go for a guy. It’s perfectly ok to give and do everything as long as it’s worth it. And it’s worth it if the guy is treating you right.

6. Do not be scared to lose him.

Don’t be scared that he’ll break up with you. Once you are afraid of losing him, you easily can be taken advantage. Be strong and if something is unacceptable, do not accept it and speak up.
7. Avoid calling your guy.

It’s a guy thing. The relationship will definitely be better if it’s the guy who’s calling, not the girl. He will get tired of you if you keep on calling. He will lose interest and challenge. More so, he will get annoyed. But it’s a girl thing also that your fingers get too itchy until you dial his number. But avoid as much as possible. Call only if really needed (like checking if your suspicions are reasonable).

8. There is a guy who will value you.

There is a guy out there who can make you feel valued, appreciated, and loved. And I mean, not just during your first few weeks together. So don’t lose hope. Don’t settle for a lesbian if you are not attracted to women. There is a man out there who can love you like a girl can.
Also, do not believe him when he says it’s just the way he really is. He’s not the sweet or expressive-type. Remember during your first few weeks together? Where has that sweet guy gone? He simply is not that into you anymore.

9. Always be the only one, no matter what.

Do not ever fall for a guy who has another girl, be it his wife, girlfriend, or any girl that he says he just can’t get rid of for whatever reason. If you truly believe that he loves you and for some reason, he can’t leave or let go of another girl, then you are no different from any ordinary mistress.

10. He must respect you.

No matter how long the relationship has been, he should always show respect towards you.

11. If he fooled you, end it.

Philandering once is enough. You can never trust nor respect the person again.

12. Never start a relationship the wrong way.

Do not steal another girl’s man, for whatever reason. Nor should you enter a relationship for the wrong reasons (loneliness, on the rebound, getting back at your ex, man-dependency, etc.) it is bound not to last. You will only end up wasting more years of your life.

13. Do not force yourself into a relationship.

Do not get into a relationship just because your friends are getting impatient with your dating escapades and the one hasn’t come yet. Do not choose who to say yes to based on superficial things like money, looks, cars, etc.. If you are even thinking of these things, you have not fallen in love yet.

14. Do not settle.

If you are not happy anymore with your relationship, break up instantly. He will not stay with you forever no matter how upright he might seem to be. Eventually, he will also want love and happiness in his life.

15. A relationship has to have love.

Love is the only thing that will push you to give your efforts into making the relationship work. And believe me, keeping a relationship requires genuine efforts of both parties.

16. Don’t be afraid to be single.

It’s fun to be single, try it. You can go out whenever and wherever you want. You are free. You can date whomever you want and you get to go out for free! Do not get a boyfriend just for the sake of having one. Do not settle.

17. Be a good girl.

Be a good girl to attract a good guy. Enter the relationship with sincere intentions. Take the guy and the relationship seriously with the plan of spending the rest of your life with that person (of course, this is after you had your bit of fun in your younger years). If you compare your flings from your real relationships, you will know that the latter makes you happier and more fulfilled.
18. Love without limits.

Whether you loved and gave everything or loved but held out for some things, if the relationship ends, you still get hurt. But if you gave your everything, you were happy and you could say that it was worth it. If you didn’t give your all, you get hurt for nothing.

19. You will get over him.

Love is over-stated. Love eventually ends and you are free to love another.

20. Be the one.

Act like you are the one. Don’t be a nagger. Don’t hinder his gimmicks. Don’t give in to him too easily. Make him treat you as important. Don’t be easy. Don’t be like every other girl he had in his life.