Sunday

I had been cooking for three consecutive days and going to the market for two.

Anyway, I thought this year would be good. From Happy, my family, my friends, my career. I've been down for what? Almost three weeks I guess and still nothing can take me higher. For the past few days I was home, those people who took me higher was only temporary. Yes, they made me laugh, they even made me smile. But I still can't resist myself of being depressed and lonely. I'm a great keeper. You cannot tell what I feel unless you look into my eye. You see me as a happy person outside, because I always laugh, I always smile and you will never see me frown even a bit. But the real thing is, I'm crushed super inside. Life's a bitch sometime eh?

I really cannot believe other people whom you busted your ass for nine whole years just to take care of the responsibilities they can't do, and in halfway across, they really don't see your worth. But since you're too kind, you accepted taking care of things you're not supposed to. You even left your office. You never asked anything in return. You just want them to be happy and you just want their appreciation. And what do you get in return? They almost wanted you to die in your feet just because of one tiny mistake you've done. You can't blame them for being bitter, it's just that understanding and being open is a very very hard thing to do for them.

What goes around comes around

I really appreciate all of the things you've done for me. You are my HERO. Ever since from the start, from the understandings, from your care and love, I owe my whole life to you. I don't want you to see that I am affected from what was happening to us. I don't want you to see me weak. I am your wall that separates you from those people. We'll eventually make it through. Just hang on, I know he loves us, and he will make a way. I love you, and I won't let anything nor anyone hurt you.

People deserve second chances. Even God forgives us non stop.

Friday

Nothing much to do. Grandpa was early, We were expecting him to arrive on Monday.

Grandpa has a new phone.

Bought new battery for the spare phone.

Cooked lunch.

Cooked dinner.

Missed Happy. Wonder what he's doing now..

Proposed something for a post or before party this coming February. Hope it works. It's going to be fun fun fun. And I'm exited, care not to tell you cause I might jinx it. Tell you when it's approved. :]

Won 13 games of solitaire today. Lucky eh?

Thursday

I hate the way you talk to me, and the way you cut your hair.
I hate the way you drive my car.
I hate it when you stare.
I hate your big dumb shoes, and the way you read my mind.
I hate you so much it makes me sick, it even makes me rhyme.
I hate it.
I hate the way you're always right.
I hate it when you lie.
I hate it when you make me laugh, even worse when you make me cry.
I hate it that you're not around, and the fact that you didn't call.
But mostly,
I hate the way I don't hate you.
Not even close, not even a little bit, not even at all.

I hate it when you talk to me.
I hate it when you laugh.
I hate it when you tell me jokes.
I hate it when you brag.
I hate it when you call me up.
I hate it when you care.
I hate you and your fucking car.
I hate it when you're there.
I hate it when I see your face.
You're always on my mind.
I hate it cause you're in my heart.
I've wished we'll never part.
I hate it cause I missed you so.
I never wanted you to leave.
I hate it cause you left my side.
I hate it cause you lied.
You said you'll always be with me.
You'll never leave my side.
You're the bestest guy I've ever had.
I hate it cause you made me sad.
You never said goodbye.

...

Love is always patient and kind. It is never jealous. Love is never boastful or conceited. It is never rude or selfish. It does not take offense and is not resentful.

Real or Reel?

..~ It hurts to love someone and not be loved in return, but what is more painful is to love someone and never find the courage to let that person know how you feel.

..~ We need to meet a few wrong people before meeting the right one so that when we finally meet the right person, we will know how to be grateful for that gift.

..~ Love is when you take away the feeling, the passion and the romance in a relationship and find out you still care for that person.

..~ A sad thing in life is when you meet someone who means a lot to you, only to find out in the end it was never meant to be and you just have to let go.

..~ When the door of happiness closes, another opens, But often times, we look so long at the closed door that we don't see the one that has been opened for us.

..~ The best kind of friend is the kind you can sit on the porch with, never say a word to each other and walk away feeling like it was the best conversation of your life.

..~ It's true that we don't know what we've got until we lose it. But it's also true that we don't know what we've been missing until it arrives.

..~ Giving someone all your love is never an assurance that they'll love you back. Don't expect love in return; just wait for it to grow in their heart. But if it doesn't be contented. It grew in yours.

..~ There are things you'd love to hear that you would never hear from the person whom you would like to hear them from. But don't be so deaf as not to hear it from the one who says it from his heart.

..~ Never say goodbye if you still want to try. Never give up if you still can go on. Never say you don't love a person anymore if you can't let go.

..~ Love comes to those who still hope although they've been disappointed. To those who still believe although they've been betrayed. To those who still love although they've been hurt before.

..~ It takes only a minute to get a crush on someone, an hour to like someone, and a day to love someone. But it takes a lifetime to forget someone.

..~ Don't go for looks; they can deceive. Don't go for wealth, even that fades away. Go for someone who makes you smile, because it takes only a smile to make a dark day seem bright.

..~ There are moments in life that you miss someone so much that you just want to pick them from your dreams and hug them for real.

..~ Dream what you want to dream; go where you want to go; be what you want to be, because you have only one life and one chance to do all the things you want to do.

..~ May you have enough happiness to make you sweet, enough trials to make you strong, enough sorrow to keep you human, and enough hope to make you happy.

..~ Always put yourself in other's shoes. If you feel that it hurts you, it probably hurts the person too.

..~ A careless word may kindle strife; a cruel word may wreck a life; a timely word may level stress; a loving word may heal and bless.

..~The beginning of love is to let those we love be just themselves and not twist them with our own image. Otherwise, we love only the reflection of ourselves we find in them.

..~ The happiest people don't necessarily have the best of everything; they just make the most of everything that comes along their way.

..~ Happiness lies for those who cry, those who hurt, those who have searched and those who have tried. For only they can appreciate the importance of people who have touched their lives.

..~ Love begins with a smile, grows with a kiss and ends with a tear..Whether it's happy or not.

..~ The brightest future will always be based on a forgotten past, you can't go on well in life until you let go of your past failures and heartaches.

..~ You know it's love when all you want is for that person to be happy, even you're not a part of their happiness.

..~ When you were born, you were crying and everyone around you was smiling. Live your life so that when you die, you're the one who is smiling and everyone around you is crying.

...

Survey says

1. How tall are you barefoot?
..~ 5'4"

2. Have you ever cheated?
..~ Yes. In some ways.

3. Do you own a gun?
..~ No, I don't.

4. If you had a mental disorder, what would it be?
..~ My mother tells me I'm already disordered.

5. How many letters are in your crush's name?
..~ Nine. His first names.

6. What do you think of hot dogs?
..~ Chili hot dogs.

7. What's your favorite Christmas song?
..~ I'll be home for Christmas.

8. What do you prefer to drink in the morning?
..~ Coffee.

9. Do you do push-ups?
..~ Nope. Sit ups.

10. Have you ever done ecstasy?
..~ You'll be wasting your time, your brain, your effort and your money.

11. Do you like Disney World?
..~ Kinda. Steady lang.

12. Do you like the rain?
..~ Yep.

13. Do you own a knife?
..~ Nope, but I have a paddle and a bat. :]

14. What do you smell like?
..~ Dolce and Gabbana

15. Do you have A.D.D.?
..~ I receive lots of attention.

16. Full initials?
..~ JMYPB

17. Name 3 thoughts at this exact moment.
..~ Drinking coffee, editing pictures, and designs for next week's launch.

18. Name the last 3 things you have bought today.
..~ Bread Pan, Eggs, Wafer cubes.

19. Name five drinks you regularly drink.
..~ Water, Coffee, Beer, Liquor, Red&Green Tea.

20. What time did you wake up today?
..~ six a.m.

21. Can you spell?
..~ I can curse.

22. Current worry?
..~ My mother's situation.

23. Current hate?
..~ Those people who can't see my mother's worth.

24. Favorite place to be?
..~ I really miss Cable Car. Most of the time, I spend it on st. 7-8

25. Least favorite place to be?
..~ Jollibee.

26. Where do you want to go?
..~ Now? I want to go to the beach or any place silent.

27. Do you own slippers?
..~ Yes.

28. Where do you think you will be in 10 years?
..~ I have my own company venting most in advertising or media.

29. Do you burn or tan?
..~ I'm pale as of the moment.

30. Yellow or blue?
..~ Of course blue.

31. Would you give up your current life to be a pirate?
..~ If I were to have lots of gold in a chest. Hehehehe.

32. Last time your cell rang?
..~ Three days ago.

33. Whats you favorite hobby?
..~ Reading, sleeping.

34. What did you fear was going to get you at night as a child?
..~ Things that get big in seconds.

35. Whats your favorite thing?
..~ My computer, pillows, perfumes.

36. Last thing that made you laugh?
..~ Happy.

37. Last thing/book you've read?
..~ None.

38. Worst injury you've ever had?
..~ My right thumb broke when I was in high school.

39. What is your GPA?
..~ When?

40. Whats your greatest dream?
..~ I dream a lot of things.

41. Who is your loudest friend?
..~ Pj, Bk.

42. Who is your most silent friend?
..~ I am the most.

43. What kind of lies you always lie?
..~ Ones that somewhat saves you for a while.

44. What kind of help you did today?
..~ Cooked lunch.

46. What song did you last hear?
..~ California Dreams

48. What kind of songs do you want played at your party?
..~ House, Trance, Chill out, Reggaetton

49. What were you doing 12AM last night??
..~ Watching Nigella Fiests.

post check up

Sunday

Arrived near afternoon at our old house to get grandpa's bread. Onic was there along with his two friends. Ate instant pancit canton for post lunch. He's going out with his friends at the same time I told him I will sleep for a while so I won't get bored waiting for nanay. Kuya Obet arrived early. Dyed some piece of my hair blue. [thanks to onic again] and discussed the difference between tap and mineral water. Arrived home at about seven p.m. Fixed my room. Had couple of beers and talks with my bestfriend, went out to hang at Bk's place. Happy, went to mass, left earlier. He was annoyed. Dok, Ian, Dude, Glydz, Maps, Kate, Kimmy, Bk, Pj, Rv, Garry, Kuya Jojie, Gorg, Martin, and Charles was there. Glydz and I was on the hot seat. Good thing Happy went home early. I ignored him today. The moment I heard that Happy went out with this bitch earlier, I was fucking irritated. Yeah and he was so paranoid that he tried to distract me twice. He lost. I'm stubborn. Went home about 3 in the morning, slept at four because my bestfriend won't let me sleep unless we talk, and woke up at five. My head is swirling. But I have to get up. I have a slot to cover.

Tuesday

I was so pissed slash drunk slash tired slash hurt yesterday that I decided to bum myself in my bed for half a day. My eyes are swollen, My head is full of distractions and I really don't know where to start. I called my agent to reschedule my slot tomorrow because I have different plans and somewhat personal. Good thing he was flexible. [thank you so much lira] Went out to print pictures from my album for the canvass they made last week for Bk's wall. It was really nice. I printed out two copies of me and Happy, one copy of Kate and Charles for peace offering and another copy of me and Ian. Had two hard bottle sessions with Ian, Bk, Pj, Kat, Nikki, Beau, and Rv. Trying to figure out the answers on Ian's penguin soup, and went home a bit early because Happy wanted to. Actually we didn't. We sat in front of the house and talk. He was trying to convince me that he has nothing to do with the bitch he went out last Sunday. He's just being friendly with her. Oh fuck that crap. Another thing he explained to me that if he was going serious with that bitch, he will not make efforts to distract and get my attention last time. He said I can bite him again at his back to prove that he was telling the truth. I bit him. I bit him very hard. One on the left and one on the right. Also, he wanted me to call him papa [duh] instead of Happy. He lost once again and I won. We went home at around eleven. I asked Borgs and his gambling friends to wake me up at three. I am expected at around 5 there. Before I went to sleep, I suddenly remembered that the only thing I ate for this day was one piece of isaw stick. Damn. But I have to sleep now.

Wednesday

Borgs woke me up at exactly three. I am really tired but I have to get up. Surprisingly the gambling session isn't done yet. Left the house at 4:30 and arrived at six. Not that bad I guess, Had a few talks with some interesting people with regards to coping up your social life and having responsibilities that you never freely accepted. Slept until four in the afternoon, woke up, ate mangoes for dinner, made two slides, edited pictures, and fixed three albums to be printed out next week. I'm wondering who's trying to reach me through my phone line. It's been two days now.

Monday

Last nights sleeping time: 4 a.m.
Time I woke up: 5 a.m.

I have a 8 a.m. slot this morning. Arrived thirty minutes earlier than expected. It was fine. [tangina nagdudugo ilong ko, nagdudugo tenga ko, nagdudugo mata ko, lahat ng pwedeng labasan ng dugo sa katawan ko dumudugo na. hahahaha] The most happiest moment of all ladies and gentlemen, blabbing. Fuck. The whole time I was sitting there, I blabbed. The first time I blabbed in front of the panel together with my batch mates. Fuck fuck fuck. The first time I was super fucking nervous. I guess because knowing that my slot today is one of the highest of the highest. Whatever. Now do I need to tell you the result? Isn't it obvious? At least I carried one thing on the way home. The freaking mosquito who kept following me inside and out of the building.

Talked to my mom this morning. I care not to tell you because crying is not necessary anymore. Knew some things that emotionally hurt me big time. It's just so sad that there are some people whom you devote your lives to and yet they don't see your worth.

My mother gave her whole life to you people. I hope you know that.

Wishmaster I need you to grant my wishes please. I really need it now.

I need someone who can take me higher. Can you?

...

Ian went at the house this afternoon. We planned some things to make the canvass pleasing in the eye of other people. The calendar was placed in the wall and I put some finishing touches on our canvass. Ian went to A&M and we went to sell a phone to a nearby buy and sell store. It was hard dealing with the buyers. They bargain their price super low to tell that the phone is in good condition. Met up with Ian at Netopia, and discovered that multiply isn't available at the moment. Went home, witnessed the grand opening of Tita Tess' barbecue store, [Dude's mom] and started the drinking session early than expected. Talked to my mother for a couple of minutes in the net, went home to change my shirt and ask permission to get out, [Borgs won't let me go by myself] and spent the rest of the night talking and making out with Happy regarding the bitch he went out last Sunday, my ignorance, my jealousy, his feelings, and his temper. We went back at the house and drink couple of beers with Kat, Vaughn, Franz. Sleep with my head swirling like a roller coaster.

Thanks to Maps for coming with me, dealing with the low end buyers, an making me cry a bit while walking.

Thanks to Ian, for reminding me that I do not smoke and life is unfair always.

Thanks to those people who made me laugh a bit and made me forget those things that makes me sad.

And thanks to Happy, for totally making me cry before going home, for understanding my fucking mood swings, for making me smile after crying, for hugging me in public and for taking me higher today.

You guys don't know how much that means to me.

Chronic

Woke up at four a.m. today. I had a hard time sleeping last night due to excitement and I can't stop thinking about Happy. Well, never mind I'm sure he doesn't think of me. [emote?] I got up early because I have a scheduled interview at exactly nine in the morning. The good thing was I arrived at the place an hour early. Spent my waiting time at Mc Donald's eating their famous Mac Rice Burger and two cups of coffee. Two cups. Getting more addicted to coffee nowadays is really one of my bad habits. I'm planning to take it off I just don't know how and when to start..Weeh! Enough of the coffee addiction. Seems everything is perfect this morning except one thing. I forgot where our meeting place was. I'm so stupid. I received an sms yesterday confirming my slot. The only problem is I didn't answer back as soon as possible. I replied late in the evening. The moment of stupidity and ignorance now came. My mind went blank for a couple of minutes. Realising that I was so exited I forgot to ask where will I be going. good thing I saved the number.

I arrived on time. My sole hurts from walking to this and to that and to there. One advice, never wore a shoe bigger then your feet's size. If only I had a choice i would wear my slippers in a formal interview. Haha, in my dreams. I was tenth on the list I think when I saw the logbook. The interview went OK. It was like the first time of my first time. It was freaking awesome. I will be back on Monday, Tuesday and Wednesday. Got to give my best shot. Wish me luck again.

I received an sms from Maps saying that the post lights and the water line in our village was already cut. I'm looking forward next week.

For the meantime, I really have to rest. Both of my legs and feet hurts from walking. And my hip is aching again. I don't know why.

...

It's been three days. He hasn't txt one message. I miss Happy big time now. I wish he's not avoiding me.

Tuesday

Woke up not that late today. My hips really hurt. Printed four copies of my resume. I have a scheduled interview at nine a.m. tomorrow. It will be my first attempt to delve and get a shot in a Telecommunications Company. I'm quite exited. Wish me luck and please pray for me. :]

Gotta sleep, have to wake up very early tomorrow.

Pimple count. Two mothers, eight children and three newly sprout.

Weekend Check up

Friday

Arrived home between five to six p.m. witnessed Tito's uncle, Trevor, brutally bit Chabby. Luckily, he's still alive. Went out with dude this night. At first it went well, long talks, couple of drinks, getting me distracted and making me laugh. I though I might consider him and give him another chance to the spot. Until he [intentionally] accidentally did something that offended me big time. That made me stand to what I've decided earlier before thinking of considering him.

Saturday

Walked Tito from the house to the school nearby at around four in the afternoon. Went to my aunt's house to get grandpa's bread. Walked with Glyda and Maps around the village, sight seeing, saw Glyd's crush Ted, forgot to eat dinner. Spent the whole night with Happy. Talked, shameless hugging, kissing, and making out in front of our friends Kimmy, Glyda, Maps and Rv. Combining the power of hard liquor and beer made us all crazy and satisfied. Allan and his friends finished their gambling session six in the morning. Knew something confidential about Maps which is not meant to be told.

Happy and I were finally together.

After four hours, I took it back. I realised that we were so drowned in our fantasies that we ignored the real meaning of reality in our lives. We're both not ready to plunge into a commitment. He's scared of what might people say if we were together and I cannot afford to get hurt at the moment. It was settled fast and OK. Before he went home, he hugged me super tight and whispered that he's going to miss me big time when I leave on Monday. I felt a tiny prick in my heart. I don't know why.

Sunday

Went to mass with Happy. Asked forgiveness for what was done previously, kept myself silent after the mass and on the way home. Thought of something impossible yet can be achieved. Stayed at Bk's pad with Happy and some friends. Received three pieces of chocolate from Kimmy, shared one with Happy. Went back to my aunt's house to get grandpa's bread with Happy. Finally, they saw the guy I was blabbing about the whole time every time I paid them a visit. Gave him three pieces of meatballs to pass out his hunger because he skipped dinner. We both shared my soda, watched his hand play with his cigar and smell his shoulders from time to time. We still enjoy ourselves together even if our strings are unattached. We stayed in front of my house with Ian's company. Happy's mom smsd him. He has to go home. He bid his goodbye and kissed me on the cheek.

Vaughn arrived. Explained to him what had happened about my last night's decision. He explained Happy's side again. He made me think again about all the efforts Happy made for me. The conversation lasted three in the morning.

vaughn: 'He would not do so much tremendous efforts if he thinks your just his booty call. Trust me, he said the same thing with Kat. Love is about taking risks.'
jempot:'Bro, We don't need to rush. Err.. love is like a battlefield?'

Overloaded

Surprisingly I woke up at 5 in the morning.

Take note: No one helped me out on this.

It's not a bad start I think. Have so much plans lined up today. Have to clean the house, fix my things, and prepare the terrace. My mother and her choir members will be having their practice here later. And I will be drinking with some friends after. Eventually, my grandfather was expecting his friends too.

Grandpa's friends arrived an hour before lunchtime. Which to us is past 12. They brought three pieces of big headed fish for grilling. I over heard one of his friends say "I am going to give your granddaughter a puppy next month." Ehem..that made me super eager to finish my tasks today. Having another puppy would mean so much to me. [to tell I already have five.] Their drinking session finished quite early as expected.

My mother had a nice thought of giving me energy boosters.

So much for this, I have to get going. We'll see what happens later.

And I continue..

I finished cleaning the whole house at 1 in the afternoon slash while cooking lunch. I took a 3 hour nap. I cleaned the terrace. I brought out the keyboard, chairs, installed lights and mopped the floor. Took a bath, watched some DVDs of the Lakers' winning season 1999-2000, and unexpectedly cooked food for my mother's friends.

They loved it.

Today, I had received four good news.

My mother thanked me for what I did today without comments,

My friends are not coming tonight, at least I can rest.

Grandpa's friend is giving me a puppy next month,

And my bestfriend's pitbull gave birth for the second time. That means another puppy for me. Yay! seven all in all.

My back aches. And it's worth it.

Gotta sleep.

Enough for my fantasies I guess, I'm back to the real world now.

I spent my last three days with all sorts of dreaming. Daydreaming, Brunch dreaming, [is there such a thing?] and praying that I dream my first new year fantasy while sleeping. You cannot blame me. It really hit me big time. Also, getting a little bit confused is an additive. But I can manage, it's not a big deal.

Happy and I know each other for about a year now. we're not that super close. He melted my heart for two reasons.

Dude and I were friends for 3 years. He was one of my guardians whenever my bestfriend is flying somewhere. He has done things for me unexpectedly.

I already have my final decision. Want to know who? I'll tell you soon.

For the meantime, I am going to deal first with the red gift Wishmaster gave me for this month. My head is swirling, Pimples popping out of my face and I have cramps the whole day. What more can I ask for?

...

I get hurt. And I heal. I always fall. And I am standing up. I sin. And I repent. I get numb. And I am sensitive. I am silent. And I am screaming. I laugh. And I cry. I am childish. And I am growing up. I am bitter. And I can still taste the sweetness inside of me. I look around. And I am contented. I am messy. And I am planned. I am careless. And I am purposed. I fail. And I still aspire. I sometimes stop. And I am moving. I get stabbed. And I forgive. I hate. And yet, I still love.

"its better to be hated for being what you are, than to be loved for being what you are not.." :p

Jumping ahead

A new year for a fresh start. But this is overdue. I have lots of things to blog, I just lack the capacity of doing it for some reasons. Poor internet supply, time to budget, people to meet, and other things came out of plan.

I had a nice new year celebration.

Drowned myself with this.

and this.

This is the shiznit new year.

Having a full one week break means a lot to me this time. I had the chance to spend it with the people I love and I care with besides my family.






And of course, spoiling myself a little bit.

The whole week scenarios are unforgettable. It's not because of the endless drinking sessions, endless gambling, endless hangouts. It's because of the people I share my time with, the moments I've been missing since I went back to my reality, the laughter, the tears I shed, the comforting feeling and knowing that you mean a lot to other people whom you do not expect to.

This hit me big time.

He's super sweet, kind, he's a home buddy, he's super unique, and he's tall.

Yeah, but I will not rush things.

They say that what you do on New Year's Eve up to the present New Year's day is what you'll be doing for the rest of the year. Then I'll be doing my first New Year fantasy for the whole year.

Wishmaster, I wish it's true. You can grant my wish, I've been good, you know that. And you know I will be happy.

For mr. guitar man, I wish you all the comforts in life. We may live in separate ways now, but I'm still here to be your wall. I had forgiven you already. I promised you that last time we talked. Please do me a favor, take good care of yourself. I know you can. I have faith in you.

I love my life. Belated Happy New Year to you!

...

My everloving Sunday

"o bat ka napatawag?"
" wala."
"ano? wala kong blah.blah.blah.blah.blah.blah. tapos blah.blah.blah.blah.(supposedly I just said four words.) o sha sige blah.blah.blah."

Everybody, meet my mom.

She's my opposite. It's obvious. But she is one of the best things i have in this world. She's my hero. She's my superstar. And I love her so much. I know she loves me too. Despite of my killer sins and mistakes, she still have space in her heart to understand me somehow. My mom, never gets mad at me. Usually when we argue, expect something bad will happen. But no, it will pass out the same day. My mom never ever gets tired of telling me compliments on the way I handle myself. The way I dress, the way I talk, the way I act, everything. But hey, she's my mom and I know what she wants is what's best for me. Often times, when we talk, (personally/over the phone) it will not be finished unless we debate on something. Sometimes, she keeps on telling me things I have to do and paid some attention to. Some of it, I don't agree. Some of it, I will just say ok I will do it. This is a good day.

Sunday would be the family day for everyone. Especially for us, it's important. We used to go out and eat every sunday. Since my grandmom died 3 years ago,
we just pinned ourselves in each's bed and wait for the day to end. I went to my mom today.

She knows I collect pillows. She's not into it, so she really doesn't pay much attention. She even tells me that it will occupy your whole bed that there will be
no space for you to lie and rest. This day, really a shocker, she bought me one. Not just a simple pillow, but a rectangular nemo+dory designed pillow. It's very cute. It was not wrapped but I considered it as a very very special gift from my mom.

Nemo pillow landed on my lap.

And from the moment my hand felt it's softness, I fell in love.

Another thing that surprised me other than the pillow, she also bought me 3 packs of peanut butter wafer sticks. (thanks to monde.) she knows I love it so much every time I would see a store nearby I would ask for it. Before eating all of them, I drooled over. :)

Pairing with half a bottle of orange juice, (thanks to karla for the share) I felt that I don't have to eat anymore. As if that was true.

Looking at it's wrappers makes me drool again.

Exited to take the first bite of the crisp white wafer sticks filled with splatters of peanut butter.

I know it will unleash the monster inside of me.

The monster that can eat ten packs in one sitting.

The monster that will be calm after eating, without regrets that she went to her mom because she misses her.

The first bite.

Another.

Then another.

Until there was none left.

She didn't even bother talking to me for a while cause she knows I don't want to be disturbed.

After paying attention to my lovely wafersticks, she invited me to have our nails done. I usually clean my own, but for the fact that my mom had done so much for me this day, and I don't want any debate sessions to happen, I agreed. How cute our nails was. So cute that i only took two pictures of it and the rest with my cousins.





What a great weekend to spend your time with your family. Making out with your new pillow, getting your nails done with your mom the debator, taking pictures with your cousins, drooling over wafersticks, talk.talk.talk. (without any buts or what ifs.)Even touching each other's lives. And for sure this day, I can get a really really good night sleep.