Monday

Last nights sleeping time: 4 a.m.
Time I woke up: 5 a.m.

I have a 8 a.m. slot this morning. Arrived thirty minutes earlier than expected. It was fine. [tangina nagdudugo ilong ko, nagdudugo tenga ko, nagdudugo mata ko, lahat ng pwedeng labasan ng dugo sa katawan ko dumudugo na. hahahaha] The most happiest moment of all ladies and gentlemen, blabbing. Fuck. The whole time I was sitting there, I blabbed. The first time I blabbed in front of the panel together with my batch mates. Fuck fuck fuck. The first time I was super fucking nervous. I guess because knowing that my slot today is one of the highest of the highest. Whatever. Now do I need to tell you the result? Isn't it obvious? At least I carried one thing on the way home. The freaking mosquito who kept following me inside and out of the building.

Talked to my mom this morning. I care not to tell you because crying is not necessary anymore. Knew some things that emotionally hurt me big time. It's just so sad that there are some people whom you devote your lives to and yet they don't see your worth.

My mother gave her whole life to you people. I hope you know that.

Wishmaster I need you to grant my wishes please. I really need it now.

I need someone who can take me higher. Can you?

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Ian went at the house this afternoon. We planned some things to make the canvass pleasing in the eye of other people. The calendar was placed in the wall and I put some finishing touches on our canvass. Ian went to A&M and we went to sell a phone to a nearby buy and sell store. It was hard dealing with the buyers. They bargain their price super low to tell that the phone is in good condition. Met up with Ian at Netopia, and discovered that multiply isn't available at the moment. Went home, witnessed the grand opening of Tita Tess' barbecue store, [Dude's mom] and started the drinking session early than expected. Talked to my mother for a couple of minutes in the net, went home to change my shirt and ask permission to get out, [Borgs won't let me go by myself] and spent the rest of the night talking and making out with Happy regarding the bitch he went out last Sunday, my ignorance, my jealousy, his feelings, and his temper. We went back at the house and drink couple of beers with Kat, Vaughn, Franz. Sleep with my head swirling like a roller coaster.

Thanks to Maps for coming with me, dealing with the low end buyers, an making me cry a bit while walking.

Thanks to Ian, for reminding me that I do not smoke and life is unfair always.

Thanks to those people who made me laugh a bit and made me forget those things that makes me sad.

And thanks to Happy, for totally making me cry before going home, for understanding my fucking mood swings, for making me smile after crying, for hugging me in public and for taking me higher today.

You guys don't know how much that means to me.