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Late post. :]

I didn't have plans celebrating my holy week unlike other people but I had plans last Easter. I went to manila to celebrate my niece's first birthday and christening, and to reunite with some of my very close friends. I went out after lunch and surprisingly went pissed because I didn't expect that the LRT and MRT stations are closed for the holidays until Monday. I had no choice but to take two bus rides and two jeepney rides. The travel is quite exhausting and to tell that you have to face the most challenging experiences riding in open vehicles - pollution. So, I arrived at the place with my face covered with dirt, my hair messed a little and the feeling that I have to shower. Of course there had been warm welcome from people I haven't seen in a while but still waiting for the people I am expecting.

The celebrant and the celebrity mother.





Of course I will not be left out of the picture. :]



In my case, it's really hard to show that I am happy and I am enjoying all the time. I felt like I don't have the right to be happy at the moment because there are lots of things pulling me down these past few days. But I realised that these moments were one of the things I am dreaming of so why would I waste my time sulking my mind in sadness where I can be happy even just for a second? Sharing time with my extended family, seeing very special people I haven't seen in ages and making my self smile for minutes is all worth for a happy Easter.

Seeing Elle made me realise that I want to have my own kids. I want to fulfill my mother's dream of becoming a grandparent. But not now, maybe next time.

The rest of the pictures are posted here.

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I need a tranquilizer

... to make myself numb on all things that revolves around me..
... to make myself sleep for hours so I wouldn't hear voices that keeps on pulling me down..
... to make myself neutral sometimes..
... AND to make them realise that I am not the bad guy always, that I am really good, that I will make a difference, that I am not worthless..

I have two chances of butting myself in a new world tomorrow. Hope I can nail it. Wish me luck. :]

Black Saturday

I am confused if I will be pushing tomorrow. I really like to see them and I know that Ach will be disappointed if I would make my ass absent on her daughter's special day. I hope I can make my final decision before tomorrow.

I finally got my volleyball uniform. I asked for a 43 but they made it 4. It doesn't matter at all, they're both my favorite numbers. Oh, and my team won our first game. Quite lucky eh?

What's inside your ipod?

Songs from:

Mozzie:
Starfucker, tantantanan, bolgia six, wake up call, face for sale
Rage Against The Machine:
Bulls on Parade, Testify, Bombtrack, killing in the Name of, Mic Check, Guerilla Radio, Know your Enemy, Renegades of Funk, Wake Up, Take the Power Back, people of the sun, Freedom.
Red Hot Chili Peppers:
Otherside, Californication, Give it a Way, Under the Bridge, All around the Wrold, Scar Tissue, Parallel Universe.
Dashboard Confessional:
Hands Down, Broken Heart, Vindicated, Don't Wait.
Ataris:
The Saddest Song, Hello and Goodbye, I'll Remember You.
Rachael Yamagata:
Be be your love, I wish you love, Even so, I want you, I'll find a way.
Razorback:
Payaso, Munting Paraiso, Giyang, Diwata.
Wolfgang:
Halik ni Hudas, Serve in Silence, Atomica, Ratz, Semenelin.
Audioslave:
Like a Stone.
No Doubt:
Spiderweb, Don't speak, Underneath it All, Ex Girlfriend, Happy now.
Alanis Morissette:
You Oughta Know, Ironic, Hand in my pocket, Maryjane, Uninvited, Head over feet, Hands Clean, Right through You.
Beach Boys:
Wouldn't it be Nice.
Alien Ant Farm:
Good.
New Radicals:
You get what you give.
The Verve:
Bitter Sweet Symphony.
Evanescence:
Bring me to life, My Immortal. Going Under.
John Mayer:
Dreaming with a Broken Heart.
Matchbox Twenty:
Nine Days, Disease, Damn, Push.
Cristina Aguilera:
Hurt.
Matt Nathanson:
Laid.
Melanie C.:
Never be the Same Again, When you're gone.
Coach Carter Soundtrack:
Balla, Southside, Halftime.
Eminem:
Lose Yourself, Cleaning out my Closet.
Justin Timberlake:
Damn Girl, My love, Cry me a river.
Natalie Imbruglia:
Smoke, Left of the Middle, Big Mistake.
Norah Jones:
Come Away with Me.
Maroon 5:
Accidentally Inlove.
The Fray:
How to save a Life.
Offspring:
Pretty Fly for a White Guy.
Boys II Men:
On Bended Knee, Four Seasons Of Loneliness.
Babyface:
You Were There.
Bic Runga:
Sway.
Cold Play:
The Scientist.
Dru Hill & Sisqo:
Incomplete.
Elvis Costello:
She.
Fra Lippo Lippi:
Later.
Dryden Mitchell:
Friday I'm Inlove.
Googoo Dolls:
Iris.
Joe:
Another Used to be.
Adam Sandler:
Grow Old with You.
Nickelback:
This is how you remind me.
Oasis:
Stand by me, Wonderwall, Champagne Supernova.
Puddle of Mud:
Blurry.
Robbie Williams:
She's the One.
Selena:
Dreaming of You.
SWV:
Weak.
Cranberries:
Linger, Zombie, Promises.
Vanessa Carlton:
Thousand Miles.
3 Doors Down:
If I could be like that, Here without you.
Chicosci:
Paris, Sink or Swim, Seven Black Roses, Knives.
Moonstar 88:
Panalangin, Sulat, Torete.
Alamid:
Your Love.
Parokya Ni Edgar:
Buloy, Trip, Halaga, Gitara, Kailan Pa, Para Sayo, Wag mo na sana.
Freestyle:
Half Crazy, Para Sayo, This Time, So Slow.
Nina:
Someday, Love Moves.
Yano:
Prinsesa.
Rivermaya:
Awit ng Kabataan, 214.
Southboarder:
Wherever you are.
Juan Dela Cruz Band:
No Touch.
Frio:
Hiling.
Regine Velasquez:
Don't Go.
Session Road:
Suntok Sa Buwan.
Beyonce:
Irreplaceable, Check up on it.
Cassie:
Me & You.
David Banner:
Run Girl.
Kelis:
Bossy, Tasty, Wait, Blindfold me.
Nelly:
Errtime, Hot in Here, Fly Away.
Pussycat Dolls:
Beep, Buttons, Wait a Minute.
Snoop Dogg:
Drop it like it's hot.
Fast and The Furious Soundtrack:
Act a fool, Tokyo Drift, Barracuda, There it go, Speed needs no Translation.
Longest Yard Soundtrack:
Here comes the Boom, My Ballz, Get back, Whip Yo Ass.
T-Pain:
I'm Inlove with a Stripper.
Benny Bennassi:
California Dreams, Satisfaction.
Bob Marley:
I Love your Way, Pass the Dutchie.
Bonnie Bailey:
Ever After.
Tiesto:
Ayla, Extacy, Adagio for Strings, Insomnia, Love Comes Again, Sunset on Ibiza, The loves we Lost, Lethal Industry, Touch Me, Dreaming.
Kaskade:
It's You It's Me.
Danity Kane:
Show Stopper.
Sublime:
Santa Ria, Date Rape, Why Can't we be Friends, Smoke Two Joints.
Hed Kandi:
Man in the Mirror, Ain't Nobody, Beautiful, Put em high, Shiny Disco Balls, All I do, Phased, Last Night, Pink is the color.
Chicane:
Stoned in Love, Saltwater, Autumn Tactics, Calvaire, Early, Lost you Somewhere.
Paul Van Dyk:
Crush, Castles In the Sky, Heaven, Iguana, Tell me why, We are alive, Time of our lives, Nothing but you, That's Life.
Cream:
Sunshine of Your Love, Strangebrew, White Room, Taking Drugs, Freed from Desire.

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I've Learned that....

...When you plan to get even with someone, you're only letting that person continue to hurt you.
...That ignoring the facts do not change the facts.
...That the easiest way to grow as a person is to surround yourself with people smarter than you are.
...That no one is perfect until you fell in love with them.
...And that life is tough but I can be TOUGHER. :]

Holy Wednesday

I never thought that I would be walking down the streets of Edsa again since I left Manila last two months ago. Last night, I received an urgent message that I have to be at this hotel at exactly six in the evening for a meeting. I thought that it kind of weird to tell that it's holy week and I know that almost everybody is busy preparing for their holy week getaways. I arrived the place three hours before so I thought I could just kill time by walking around the walls of Shang and window shop. Actually I did shop a little. These lovely sneakers just caught my attention and even though I am persistently telling myself that I will go home carrying only my bag, I can't explain that every time I keep reminding my head, I end up standing in front of the shoe store. Game over. My sneaker passion won.

So I bought the shoe and head straight to the place to prevent more money shedding. When I arrived at the lounge, I thought that maybe I could wear my new sneakers, flaunt it with everybody else. Imagine someone wearing a long sleeved business attire slash hair smoothly done with sneakers. Hilarious. but my shoes are definitely cute. The meeting started past seven and all they offered was mango juice. My tummy is a little bit croaking because I skipped lunch to be early and good thing all the people that surrounds me feels the same way too. In the middle of the conversation somebody arrived. He was wearing a black shirt with knee length shorts and black sneakers and he is so hot. Super gorgeous drop dead hot. He's so hot that my croaking session went gone, the energy boosted inside me to tell that I haven't eaten anything for the whole day, and I managed to smile at everyone while I was telling my objectives and perceptions. I even cited some situational examples. I never do that. Normally, I would just deliver my piece and sit my ass down again.

I knew coming to Manila was a great decision. Buying new shoes, meeting awesome people, skipping meals and salivating over mr. hottie. It's all worth it. I even had the chance to shake mr hottie's hand and leave the hotel smiling.

I hope I will see him again.

Yesterday was full of amusement. My new sneakers, surviving multitasking, walking with pride for five hours and eating my favorite food. I was so happy that I went to a Graduation party late in the evening to celebrate April Fool's and get drunk. The food was great specially the Host's specialty, her kare kare and lumpiang sariwa. I didn't even bother to have rice on my plate. I went home one in the morning with my tummy full of terrific food and my head with shots of whiskey. Happy April fools to everyone!