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Late post. :]

I didn't have plans celebrating my holy week unlike other people but I had plans last Easter. I went to manila to celebrate my niece's first birthday and christening, and to reunite with some of my very close friends. I went out after lunch and surprisingly went pissed because I didn't expect that the LRT and MRT stations are closed for the holidays until Monday. I had no choice but to take two bus rides and two jeepney rides. The travel is quite exhausting and to tell that you have to face the most challenging experiences riding in open vehicles - pollution. So, I arrived at the place with my face covered with dirt, my hair messed a little and the feeling that I have to shower. Of course there had been warm welcome from people I haven't seen in a while but still waiting for the people I am expecting.

The celebrant and the celebrity mother.





Of course I will not be left out of the picture. :]



In my case, it's really hard to show that I am happy and I am enjoying all the time. I felt like I don't have the right to be happy at the moment because there are lots of things pulling me down these past few days. But I realised that these moments were one of the things I am dreaming of so why would I waste my time sulking my mind in sadness where I can be happy even just for a second? Sharing time with my extended family, seeing very special people I haven't seen in ages and making my self smile for minutes is all worth for a happy Easter.

Seeing Elle made me realise that I want to have my own kids. I want to fulfill my mother's dream of becoming a grandparent. But not now, maybe next time.

The rest of the pictures are posted here.

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I need a tranquilizer

... to make myself numb on all things that revolves around me..
... to make myself sleep for hours so I wouldn't hear voices that keeps on pulling me down..
... to make myself neutral sometimes..
... AND to make them realise that I am not the bad guy always, that I am really good, that I will make a difference, that I am not worthless..

I have two chances of butting myself in a new world tomorrow. Hope I can nail it. Wish me luck. :]