tell me, is this childish?

nah ah. special holiday for today and tomorrow. since we have two weeks left of stay before going back to winter land, we decided to spent the holiday at the sea side and a little turn back time. yes. i mean roller blades. roller skates. two falls for him. one fall for me. and no fall for her cause she's not actually skating at all. haha. she's afraid to fall so all she does is slide her blades once or twice then wait it until it stops and slide again. man, skating is quite stressful specially on the part that you have to carry all your body weight down to your feet while skating. it hurts big time and i realized that it only says one thing. - i lack physical movement and i really have to work out again. well, enough on the complaining part let's get on the great part which is eating! after skating, we decided to have ice cream at the center. we did expect too much crowd since we are aware that today is holiday so we just patiently wait que after que for our turn to order. i got a scoop of coffee something and one almond. i was tryin to look if they have cookie dough and i just remembered that it's not haagen dazs. it's baskin robbins. hahaha. didn't have the chance to take a snap shot of what i had because it was too busy working itself down my mouth to my digestive system. and that was the best moment of my life. and to add more spice, i just didn't decide to go for the ice cream. i also grabbed a full meal of chicken. i felt sorry for krispy kreme. next time my friend, we will bond.

i told myself that i will be fixing my blog's in and exteriors once when i've completed everything that i have to take care of when i set foot in this island. It's winter here so maybe the very cold air that i breathe through my nose went to my veins up to my brain and caused a severe sickness called "special amnesia". mine is not a regular-forget-everything amnesia but a very very special one because i still remember things like my name, my family, my feelings and my responsibilities. i thought maybe this sickness occured when i got busy from work again and had controlled my life totally. i even have no time pampering myself. not even for a 1 dollar haircut. this night, when i was busy scorching things in my mind, i remember one thing that never left me through thick and thin which is - blogging. yeah blogging. i know i've neglected this blog way too many times and i don't have to enumerate each because it would take so much of my time and effort. i've started this blog officially last two years because of so many reasons and two of them was loneliness and the need of a companion to talk to. stupid eh? blogger doesn't talk, it doesn't give you advice on what to do whenever you feel hopeless and alone, and it doesn't tell you how much it feels for you when you share anything you have in mind. as for my side, i just feel right and i know i am somewhat connected to a world where i have all the right to say what i want and nothing or no one could ever ever stop me from what i wanted to do. so, i made a click. a click that will take me once again to the world where i was deeply indulged 2 years ago every now and then. i know updating is not necessary but i have to finish all of what i have started...

46 posts saved as draft.. 46 started posts yet unfinished. i owe this much because when there was the time that i felt like i needed to be heard, this never left me.

so once again lads, my blog was reborn and will be open and updated again maybe not 24/7 but atleast once or twice in a week.

i hope you guys liked what i have done to my page lay out though. happy blogging! :]

i am still alive. =]

I created an account in facebook for the purpose of contacting my friends who's not using multiply not knowing anything about it. One of my friends said it was the same but more insane and fun. After registration, etcs.. I found it a little bit confusing and a little bit more of what I had expected. It's insane!!! and for sure will drive you crazy. Check out my first new pet SKY! Feed, cuddle, scratch or play with him! Anything you want and he's got little secrets too! I have only one pup for now but I am looking forward to adopt more. For the meantime, I have to take care of other pups from different owners so I can gain bones for my own rottweiler. Plus there are other applications available aside from having a virtual puppy. One word about Facebook. Awesome.

I LOVE GOSSIP GIRLLLLLLLLLL!!!!!!!!!!!!


i wish i was serena but blair's the personality that i possess. haha

Listen to GOOD TIMES with Mo Mojo and Grace Lee on MAGIC 89.9 (6-9AM Manila) www.magic899.fm TODAY WEDNESDAY APRIL 2... BRIAN GORREL of the GUCCI GANG blog (delfindjmontano.blogspot.com)will call in the program to answer your questions. Call in at 631-0899... pls pass

Spread the love!!! BLOGGERS REUNITE!!!

a little peek from our ym conversation:

MARK: so when are you coming back from thailand?
ME: i dunno. maybe within three weeks.
MARK: THREE WEEKS?? my birthday is coming in three days. so it means that you're not there to celebrate you boyfriend's special day??
ME: i'm sorry but i have no other choice. you know my work and i thought we talked about this before??
MARK: whatever. am going to check some things in the house i'll talk to you later. (disconnect...)

LATER THAT DAY....

ME: so everything is planned exactly?
ALLAN: yup. as you said. everything will be perfect just the way you want it.
ME: ok see you tomorrow. thanks bezt, ur the best!!


surprise surprise!!! happy april fools!!!

Manila..Manila..

hundreds or maybe a thousand of people from different provinces and cities came to fall in line to wait, and be scorched by the heat of the sun just to get the chance to be touched by a catholic priest healer who became popular because they said that he can cure people.

We make our own miracles. If it was granted, God knows it is for the good of everybody.

My Favorite Niece…

FOR THE PERSON WHO WROTE THIS THREE PARAGRAPH ESSAY, PLEASE JUST STOP IT. MESS YOUR OWN LIFE.

who are you to judge the life i live? i know i'm not perfect and i don't live to be. but before you start pointing fingers, make sure your hands are clean. :]

Anonymous said...

"you are one big dissimulator. Tsk tsk tsk!

A certified woman of ostentation. I pity you!"



.....Awww thanks you. :) The greatest! You're still the same shit, just moved in a different island.

It's been a while. :]

Last year, painting life was unexplainable. I was very hopeless. But then, life was very great to give me more than what I could ask for. More than what I deserve to have. I have proved myself that I can make a difference. That I am not worthless. That I am better. Of course life wouldn't be complete without the undying bitches that will try to pull you down, but the hell do I care? You keep on destroying me, mouthing words, etc. and I will always wave my middle finger to you with pride.

Life is indeed a big journey for all of us. We gain some and we lose. We fall, yet we manage to get up and move on. My mom is my life. My REAL family is my life. The people whom I call TRUE friends is my life. LOVE is my life. Life is like a painting. Start the drafting by your parents, stencil, draw, shade and color by the people around you as you grow up. Life is like looking on a blank canvass with a big picture on your head, as it will be a very very perfect masterpiece.

when i was young, I dreamed that I started painting my life going to different places. 23 years after, it seemed to be coming into reality and realizing that I am indeed painting another picture in my autobiography.

I had a painting session in Indonesia.
in Thailand.
in Malaysia.
in Laos.
in Japan.
in Hongkong.
in China.

Next stop, Singapore.
And next stop, I won't tell because I might jinx it.

See you on Sentosa next week! :]

Tuesday

Why can't I just write my fucking thoughts? It's like when I'm in this place, that place, this area, that area, here, there, lots of thoughts come into my mind and when I have decided to write it down? It just fade.

Totally blank.

I really have to clear up my mind.

And by this fucking time? I have to repost this for fifteen times. And blogger keeps on telling me that it could not be processed and I have to try again.

Blast from the Past

12 months ago..

January
. Mark came into my life.
. Mom gave me a pillow..
. Celebrated New Year away from my family for the first time.
. Been depressed for three whole weeks - family affairs
. Found comfort from people who cares unexpectedly.
. Convergys fucked me up bigtime!
. "Trial Month" for plunging myself to new field of work.
. Love is in the air :]

February
. Oh La-LOVE month!
. Twin's birthday bash.
. Trying to avoid heart commitments.
. Unexpected haircut. haha!
. Fell inlove with Hallmark.
. Drinking.
. Knew the meaning of my name.
. Two Down.

March
. Worst PMS experience ever!
. Got the chance to play volleyball again for a long time.
. My ever most painful tooth ache in history.
. Freakiest moment I had with my mobile phone.
. Drinking with my mom's friends.
. Argument month with my mother.
. Realizations of my mother's undying love for me.
. Mark started his schooling.
. Down to Three.

April
. Welcome new job!
. Karylle's birthday and christening bash!
. Unforgettable interview by Mr. Hottie.
. Long lost friends reunite.
. Mark's birthday Bash.
. DECIDING to get formal to everybody with our relationship.
. MEETING his family for the first time.
. Down to Four.

May
. My 2 days drinking till the sun is up birthday bash!!!
. Dada's birthday!
. Welcome another work!!!
. My premenopausal supevisor.
. working for 16 hours straight.
. the person who's not to be named tried to ruin my family again - she lost.
. Learning that my dada is sick.
. Wishmaster granting my wishes.
. Down to Five.

June
. Mark sinned big time. Almost fell of the branch. BIGGEST.
. Patience is a virtue.
. My spiritual soul was resurrected from the dead.
. Work keeps me busy.
. Got away finally from the crazy owner of my apartment.
. Got problems at work, I was absorbed. Yay me!!

July
. My bestfriend's birthday!
. My mother's birthday!
. Got dead sick for a week.
. Hating my boss' assistant.
. LOST someone very very special and close to my heart.
. The person who's not to be named was out of the family connection finally!
. life continue to move.
. Welcome back to the Industry Jackulet!
. Mark met my family.
. Down to seven!!

August
. Really hate my boss' assistant!
. Jakarta.
. Bangkok.
. Down to Eight.

September
. Things are doing great between me and Mark.
. I MET HIS FAMILY AND RELATIVES.
. Bought new pair of jeans. FOR THE FIRST TIME again!
. Realized that I lost weight.
. Down to Nine.

October
. My Blood sisters and brothers ANNIVERSARY.
. Work Mode, back to Thailand.
. Welcome new phone.
. Transfer here. Transfer there.
. I am starting to like my boss' assistant.
. Mother-Daughter visitation rights.
. Down to Ten, long distance relationship works!

November
. Tayabas. HIS WHOLE FAMILY. I MEAN HIS WHOLE.
. Went back to Jakarta.
. Down to Eleven.

December
. Thailand
. Welcome back Manila.
. BEST Christmas ever with my family!
. Shopping galore. :]
. Drinking.
. Getting drunk again.
. Waking up realizing that there are so many people who loves me more than they love themselves.

It was a great year. The best though. :]